That elation didn't last long. I learned that some people need to win at any cost, and that hurting people emotionally, physically, and financially can be rationalized. I learned that confronting someone who does these things is an exercise in futility as they are supremely narcissistic. My relationship with my stepmom was extremely volatile as I struggled through adolescence, and I have this experience to thank for my current life.
My life: full of generosity, concern for others, a bit too focused on fairness, a deep understanding of what it feels like to be abused and neglected, a commitment to a future America in which the wealthy will help those who are less fortunate and those who have improved their lives pay it forward.
This could have gone the other way and I might have built a life centered around bitterness, deceit, money and possessions, anger, and rationalizations. I might even have believed that those who were less fortunate made themselves that way. I might have hoarded my resources, and built ways to keep others from approaching.
In short, I might have supported Trump.
I cannot watch Trump without seeing the woman who was so central to my adolescence. I see someone who lies to bring down an opponent and lies to build himself up. I see someone who cheats other people, because if someone gets cheated, it's their fault for not being sharp enough. I see someone who tries to intimidate others through threats and manipulation, as I was threatened. I see someone who had people on his security detail who assaulted others violently, as I also experienced violence personally and witnessed assaults on my Dad. Trump is clearly fucked up and all the money and fame in the world cannot make him a safe person.
My vote is very much a positive vote for Hillary and on a deeper level, a vote honoring my survival from a narcisist so similar to Trump. Please vote, and remember that our country has been built on cooperation and inclusion.